12th May Diary

Saturday
I stopped in today felt a little weak and watched TV in bed for most of the day.

Sunday

A very quite day today. I sat on the computer and tried to concentrate on my college assignments.
I have started to get quite depressed lately it may be the tablets I’m on aren’t working anymore or it could be that I’ve really started to think about what if it doesn’t happen!

Monday
Had a wonderful day at Clumber Park. Mum took a picnic and we just had a leisurely stroll (or push) around the house and church and sat and watched the cricket. This weather is suited to me. People usually think the warm weather won’t be conducive to me but in fact it helps. It cheers me up and helps me relax. I asked a doctor once about this and he said it was probably the muscles relaxing. The smell of suntan cream and the blue-sky reminded me so much of holidays. The first thing I do if I get the transplant is go away. I am stuck at the moment I can’t book a holiday!!!

Tuesday
Mum came and stopped with me today we watched a bit of TV and then she helped with the ironing. She’s trying to help john by alleviating some of the pressure on him. My friends Sue and Jo came round to see me for a little while. It was good to see them yet upsetting as I start to think what I am missing at work and get so exasperated and depressed.

Wednesday
Mum and Janet helped clean the house today. We had such a laugh.

Thursday
The weather is fantastic so mum has persuaded me to get dressed and go out for a walk around the block. I tend to stop in and don’t want to venture out but thank goodness she bullied me into it as soon as I went out I felt better. Seen as I was out we decided to go to Rother Valley. We sat ate ice cream and walked a little round the lake. It felt good to be outside.

Friday
Need my hair washing so went to local hairdressers for a good wash and blow dry I can wash my hair anymore as it’s too exhausting. They waxed my eye brows as well. I feel totally different now quite good actually, simple things make me so happy.